Tuesay, November 16, 2010

Dear God,
      Another busy day today and I am so tired. I've had moments of needing to catch myself because I feel like Im falling asleep here at the computer. Thankfully I have tomorrow off. I worked part of Robyn's shift on Monday and she is working for me tomorrow. In one respect, I hate to lose out on hours but after the last couple of days I could use the rest. Maybe I will be a little more motivted tomorrow. I have to be. There is still so much that needs to be done because time is running out.
      The T.V. in the living room stopped working this morning. There is sound but no picture, kind of like in the days of radio. That was the day's bginning!  We went to look at another house today and that did not go well. The guy who was showing us the house took off five minutes before we were supposed to meet to go to the store and left us waiting for almost half an hour. When he did take us through the place, I could not believe what I saw. It was a dump, basically a converted garage, and I have to say, I am being polite. One bedroom's flooring had been torn up due to damage of some kind, the washer/dryer were in the kitchen next to the refridgerator. There was no real furnace or heating system but what was there looked like space heaters that were hooked to the wall. There were no lights, no areas for storage, nothing that was family friendly. I am probably sounding dramatic but it is the kind of place that would have drug dealer checking their watches!
      While we were waiting to see the place, I saw an ad that read familiar so out of curiosity I called. Sure enough, the person I had spoken to was someone  had spoken to several months ago. I had looked into renting his home back in August. He called me shortly after and told me that they had found a renter. It seems that these folks had an emergency in their family and had to break their agreement so it is back on the market. He is supposed to be up Thursday so that we can take a look at the house but he talked like he was going to call once he knew for sure what his schedule was going to be. I am almost scared to even think or hope for the positive because of the way things have gone. I have tried to keep a smile and a cheery outlook but I have to admit it has been very hard to do today. It isn't that I doubt You or Your word. I guess I'm having a momentary bout of humanity. I know You have a plan. I don't know what that plan is but I know You have one!
       Dea God....please comfort me....don't let me lose hope!