Wednesday November 10, 2010

Dear God...I. have not written much of anything lately. My prayers have been as scattered as my thoughts. So many decisions to make. So many things just overwhelming my heart and mind and soul. So much to face that I never imagined in my worst nightmare having to face. Just as I feel the mercy and believe for forgiveness, something happens, something is said and I find myself flooded with guilt and condemnation. So much uncertainty that I am almost afraid to hope for anything good. My needs are many and I feel unworthy to bring them to You yet I know You know what we stand in need of. I am scared to hope and I am scared to believe but I know in my heart You have a good plan for me and for my family. And I know that ultimately You will not allow anything that isn't for my good. I will do my part, Lord, and trust You with the outcome. Thank You, Lord! I love You!